Look at my insane subject combination, what have I got myself into? EL can well kill me with the bundle of written commentaries to be done in the coming course. It has come to the end of the holiday and I suddenly (and finally) realized that I have done so miserably little for my studies. Still lazy as ever, and start to panic in the last minute. Guess that this is the nature of a Libran so I cannot run away from it. How the zodiac describes and determines a person's fate. And the many other subjects, all equally laborious and exhausting, except that I have the passion for some (which keeps me working on) while indifferent to the others (such as chem.!!!). But even passion doesn't help to change the inevitability of doing loads of work. Neither does any form of lament. I guess I have begun to sound so-called whining and moaning, which is so much not my style. Changed by life. Frustrating and irritating isn't it.

...I shall not grumble here any more. Must find something to do, no matter how insignificant that thing is.